Salam
I've deactivated my facebook account. After all I can remember is my 24 hours a day are filled with news from facebook. So, why I deactivate it? I admit it was like shutting my social life and everything that I have now off from my life. Therefore, till now, I still am not sure.
I just....don't feel good enough about myself. I feel demotivated. I feel bad. I think I am indeed a bad person. I am not wholly good hearted. And I blame myself for that. Because of these reasons, I am ashamed to see the world. To see what others are doing. I want to get rid of the jealousy, the anger and everything-related-with-mazmumah feelings built slowly inside me. I wonder why should I feel like this.
So, I've decided. I want to distance myself from what cause me to feel this. And I'm still trying do it. Fighting my best to get myself super busy. Filled my head with everything not related with the cause so hard till sometimes eventually, I broke into tears. At least I've tried.
And to everyone affected. IF only there is. I beg for thousand apology. I am a mere human. I am not good enough to be a REALLY good person with a REALLY pure and innocent heart. I don't afford to meet all expectations. and seriously, I am not strong enough to support you when I am not yet concretely supported. Sorry.
Regards
3 comments:
obviously you're having something going on in ur life and all i can say is good luck coping with it. it might be a good thing to take a break from fb. get everything straightened out. be strong n you'll be fine. iA. ^^
be strong naa.ill always be there for you =)
@eL: bolehlah. thanks for the support. really appreciate it. sob
@hardisk: T_T sorry asyik nges je..thank u
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