eiffel , paris

seriously i want to go to my own tower

'efi' tower

my dream is: to be proposed or honeymoon in paris

and

take romantic pitcha (lots!!) here

p/s: 3.00 am still not asleep. when is this going to end? ;(

wish list

saya teringin nak makan cempedak goreng

*dah meleleh air liur

wedding plan

p/s: 3:20 am..still cannot sleep..ughhh


1. how old are you? 
- 21

2. are you single? 
- nope!

3. at what age do you think you'll get married? 
- as soon as possible. seriously HAHA

4. do you think you'll marrying the person you are with now? 
- really hope so =) 

5. if not, who do you want to marry? 
- no idea.. 

6. who will be your bridesmaid & bestman? 
- my family

7. do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding? 
- garden is preferable

8. where do you plan to go on honeymoon? 
- anywhere near beach and sun and romantic hotel room

9. how many guests do you think you'll invite? 
- thousands if i afford to do that 

10. will that include your exes? 
- erk. out of respect. yes

11. how many layers of cake do you want? 
- make it three :)

12. when do you want to get married, morning or evening? 
- can it be at night? ok lah. if not of course morning. i want nice pitcha

13. name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding. 
- HAHA. this one, i'l ask my future husband

14. ur wedding colour theme? 
- i want it to be pastel please

15. do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon&fork?knife? 
- anything in the budget. heee



17. honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding? 
- AFTER the weds. HAHA

18. money or household items? 
-household items of course

19. how many kids you like to have? 
- one twin and 3 single, ohh perfect family 

20. will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD? 
-absolutely!! 

21. ur dream present from ur future wife/husband 
-kasih yg membawa kita ke syurga. amin

22. whose wedding plan would you like to know next 
- you! if you read this HA

personality test

dang! jet lag kills me
disebabkan sangat bosan..
tuan-tuan and puan-puan mungkin boleh try juge :)

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.


aaaahh...so me! thanks 

sushi mushi

tekka maki

tamago 

ama ebi

mixed

 

:)

home and familia

it is amazing how my own home can make me feel
i am no more feeling empty
i dont cry
i feel happy
i feel blessed
and what more important is

I feel LOVED
and I can really see my purpose of life
being alive
being a person

that is really what family is for
i feel grateful to have one

xoxo

thai foods!

I looveee thai foods. sedap. pedas. even tau mesti sakit perut nak makan gak haha

 

tom yam

 

steamed sea bass

 

ekor ikan

 

ngaaa..mulut dia

 

yummy

foods !

yummy krispy kreme

chocolicious

melon smoothie

kuey teow

journey to the east

My journey to go to my home-sweet-home certainly knocked me out for 14 hours today.But, I just don't care. What important is I am already here, in front of my laptop writing this post in my home in Jasin. Haha. Nevertheless, even after those long hours sleeping, I still feel sleepy now. I don't know if it is jet lag or it is just me that is so snorlax when it comes to holidays! 

My journey to Jasin started from taking National Express bus from Leeds to London (10.20 am -2.45 pm (supposely, but the London road was busy as always and I arrived at 3.00 pm). Then from London Victoria Station, I took bus to go Heathrow Airport lak. Penat gk la tarik bag yang almost 40 kg overall naek bus. What an experience! Upon arriving, I immediately have to search for Terminal 3. For me, Heathrow Airport is freaking huge. If it is not because of my dearest friends, I must have lost in my attempt to search for the place. Thanks to my long-sighted rabun yang even worse, I can barely see signboards clearly now. Sigh. Now, is the waiting part before boleh check-in bag and get the boarding pass. Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly. And suprisingly, I met some other Malaysian too yang naik Oman air. 2 from Surrey, 1 from Soton, 1 from Manchester and 2 from Leeds (including me) makes us the 6 people yang x sabar nak balik Malaysia. Haha.

After 7 hours of flight, akhirnya, berjaya jejak kaki di Oman. It is beautiful though despite ketandusan and the deserted area around the airport. But my dad told me, diorg macam tu pun stil kaya because they are oil-based country. Hmph. No wonder the Omani Riyal is so expensive. (1 euro=0.5 omani riyal approx) Snap! Snap! (taking pictures) and I continue my journey to KL. Transit pun tak lama. 2.30 hours je...

Thanks to Oman Airlines with the big seats and delicious food and quite great in-flight entertainments. If not, I must be dead bored sitting for another 7 hours in the flight. And thanx also to you, you-know-who-you-are, for always being there for me at all time. Through thick and thin. Thank you so much!

Sampai2 je to Malaysia, my adrenaline rushes in my body. I can feel it. But I tried my best to keep my cool face up-front. Haha. Nervous gile. (Sebab ape? Adalah rahsia. Haha) SKIP SKIP ok then, my dad and my dearest brother brought me straight away from KLIA to Jasin. Thank you so much!!! Love you both. Hehe. Sorry ey Zareef and papa sebab terpaksa hantar efi malam2 untuk jumpa mama and balik Jasin and kene balik Subang at the same night. Thank you again

And now, I am here.Phew.

Regards,
efi xx

finally!!

finally i got the right feeling

i can't wait to go back malaysia!!!

x saba nyeeeeeeeeee :D

live the life

yes.
i have done mistakes
and i admitted it
i know its hard to detangle everything ive done
but at least
i tried to
and it seems the core problem is almost solved

until
the peripheral problem comes in
ugh
i dont like this
its our problem
not yours
but i cant say anything

amour

hate to admit

im in love

efi xx

pain

Pain, 
you just have to ride it out, 
hope it goes away on its own, 
hope the wound that caused it heals.


There are no solutions, 
no easy answers, 
you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. 


Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. 
Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. 


Pain,
you just have to fight through,
because the truth is you can't outrun it
and
life always makes more.

azam baru

alhamdulillah

result pun dah keluar

happy!

xsangka lagi elok drp apa yang saya expect ^.^

thank u Allah

dengan itu, 

sy nak mulakan azam baru

fuh fuh

pertama: saya nak hidup berdikari aka hidup dengan cara yang betul...pada jalan yang betul...saya xnmpk apa kebaikannya saya bergantung hidup pada orang lain. dah sampai masa saya berserahkan diri saya pada Allah and biarkan Allah yang menentukan segalanya. He knows what best for me. Dan saya harap saya akan dapat apa yang terbaik daripadaNya.

kedua: saya akan berusaha dengan lebih bersungguh2 untuk habiskan medical study saya. classic~ haha

ketiga: banyak lg. malas dah nak cakap. nnt x terbuat. paling utama atas tu ha..

ya Allah. permudahkanlah. amin

efi

life in UK

salam

it has been almost a year now i'm living in UK
alot has been happening to me
most of it are life-changing incidents
my life has certainly changed now
everything has changed
my direction
my aim
the people around me
it's not easy to face it
but yet, i tried my best to made it through

almost a year
i've been living far away from home
almost a year
i guide myself
trying to be independent
and i made it
but with the help from my family and friends
for that
i don't think i improve much
my interdependency towards people only grew bigger now
got worse
my emotion gets easily affected nowadays

sometimes
i think i have a terrible mood disorder
i frequently get mood swing
i cried a lot
i rebel
etc
i concluded, studying oversea is not easy

the fancy imagination of the good life living in this 'white' country seriously has a lot to pay

efi

im bored

bosannyeeeeeee!

BBQ day

Tempat: Belakang rumah Syifa'
Masa: >6pm
Menu: Ayam, Daging Burger, Hotdog, Nasi goreng dll
Sempena: Pemergian akak-akak final year
:)

ayam

lampu

pinggan

kasut



efi xx

everything will be different

Just because everything is different doesn't mean anything has changed.  ~Irene Peter

mood habis exam

salam

hari ni officially habis exam

sangat tak best sebab soalan susah

and banyak sangat benda tak tahu

barulah terasa betapa tak pandainya saya

(even before ni pun da banyak bukti)

rasa penat

penat sangat3

dah berusaha banyak sangat

tapi masih lg takat2 tu je

tak tahu apa lagi patut dibuat selain tawakal

blaja kat Leeds ni barulah betul2 membuatkan saya lebih byk berfikir

berfikir pasal betapa pentingnya sabar

sabar hadapi semua dugaan

sabar hadapi exam yang susah

sabar dapat result yang tak seberapa

yang dapat tenangkan hati saya pun ialah kata2 mimy pada pinat

kat dinding

"Allah tengok effort, bukan tgk result"

dan ayat favourite since tau ade ayat ni kt KMB

"Tetapi bole jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal ia baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui" 2:216

Tolonglah bertenang ye hati

Yang penting, dah cuba buat yang terbaik

Tapi

Of course,

Sedih itu mesti ade gak nanti

huhu

saya pun manusia biase

sekian

efi

nescafe

malam ini dalam sejarah:

FIRST TIME buat nescafe

xtau mimpi ape
padahal bukan suke pun
just teringin je
punce: sejuk dan basah
huhu

tp probnye ialah
KENAPE makin mengantuk ni????

uugghhh...tolong lah.td bru je bgn tido kot
n skrg mengantuk lg
sob
sy caffein tolerant ke?
kenape threshold mengantuk saya sgt rendah?

efi yg mengantuk

should

somehow

i should be happy
i should
for what ever reason

i just should

Cat

salam

kucing SANGAT comel

omg

entry ni khas utk kucing je

hoho

dulu saya adalah spesies yg sgt takut kucing

benci

geli

takut

dgn makhluk berbulu ni

tp setelah ade sekor ibu kucing ni beranak di rumah saya

dgn anak2 nye yang sgt comel

mnyebabkan saya sangat3 suke kucing

rindu la pulak kucing di rumah

kucing UK best gk

ade 2 ekor yg slalu merayau kat sini

nseb baek orang punye

kalo x da lame sy kidnap

comeeeelll! bulu die byk sangat

kembang dan gemok

tolonglah kucing

npe comel sgt?

geram sungguh

rse nk picit2 je smp penyek

hoho

p/s: gamba atas ni kucing orang len sbnrnye.amek kat fb..tp sbb nme die (tuan kucing ok rif!) sme ngn sy, sy anggap je la die bg sya pnjm gmba kucing die yg sgt comel tu..hoho

integrated exam

salam
next week ku ade exam lagi ni
pehal xde mood nk study lagiiiiii?? sob
byk kot yg x confirm lekat kat kepale
tp nk tgk buku, even kertas pun xde mood
masalah lg bsr ialah
tgk movie pun xde mood
jalan2 pun xde mood
masak pun xde mood
makan pun xde mood
mungkin ku ptt ke gym
bg sihat sket badan
then baru sihat minda kannn

hopefully

da~
*still xde mood
mood swing sungguh

spot test

salam
hari ni baru abes satu exam ku
SPOT TEST
x abis lagi adrenaline pumping dalam badan ku...
asal nervous sgt ni?
ni da pukul 12 malam pun still nervous lg
padahal spot test td pukul 12 tgh hari
abis jawab dah pun

ow
mungkin sbb ku rse exam td susa
=.=
waaa..mmg ku rse susa
tp npe senior2 kate cm senang je...kacang je
x punnnn...sob
tnye housemate
nseb bek sume kate susa gk
tp x kesa la
yg penting sy rs susa
sedih nyeee

next week ade integrated exam lak
2 paper=200 soalan lagi perlu dijawab
byk nye bnde kene buat lg
kene packing
kene check tiket flight
kene bayar duit sewe umah baru
kene study!
kene jawab exam!
berseronok mcm dah xde dlm kamus hidupku
ouh.sangat xde life
maksudku dah x mcm life ku di kmb
sgt rilek bahagia aman dan damai
haih

adakah benar makin tua makin kurang sel otak
cpt la neuron ku..bersynapse cpt!
i need you to remember those freaking one year lecture notes
sob

allah...mudah kan lah
amin